Radio personality Patricia Kihoro has opened up about her struggles with esteem issues.
On her blog, Hadithi, the actress disclosed that when she was seven years old, she became conscious of her dark skin – which she deemed less beautiful, and would do everything to come out of it.
“Every step of your journey has been poignant, as you’ve been going through difficult flux all through your life. You have always been so impressionable that random encounters, such as with a boy selling nuts in traffic, or with a stranger on a bus, would be enough to leave you shaken,” she began her narration.
“… I love you Patricia. And it hurts me to say but I haven’t loved you for a long time. It probably began at age seven or eight, when I’d sit in the sun with soap on my face, hoping the black would crack off of my skin. Important lesson darling; Black don’t crack. You are magic, you and all your melanin.”
The singer nonetheless is hopeful that she will fully overcome her esteem struggles one day.
“Patricia, your mind will develop a skill, one that will be detrimental to you. Its ability to amplify the negative voices that will call out to you is uncanny. You need to stop this before it gets out of hand my love. Stiffle this negativity and focus on all you have to offer the world,” she wrote.
That self-worth concept, she says would improve her interaction with the people around her.
“You are as important as the people you have and allow into your life. You will develop a strange habit of second guessing the value that you are worth. Do not get trapped into believing that people are doing you a favor by being your friends. They want to be there. Let them. Do not be afraid to dig deeper into friendships with people that you find yourself drawn to because guess what darling; they are lucky, and happy to know you.”
The Moi University alumnus is hopeful she will find her flame.
“Patricia, you will love. And you will love deeply, without reservation. Keep doing that. Love without holding anything back. Feel it all. You will get hurt, because not everyone you fall in love with will be the right one, but the love you share will never be wrong so don’t hold back,” she said.
Patricia Kihoro won many hearts with her music at the Tusker Project Fame competitions, received slack from audiences and has risen above it all to become a renowned force in the Kenyan showbiz industry.