Top Tanzanian actress Wastara Juma has foreboded her death if her life, which she describes as sorrowful, does not improve in 2017.
Wastara said that the death of her husband Sajuki Juma was the beginning of all her troubles, as happiness became a pipe dream.
Wastara took to her social media pages on December 31, 2016 to pen a chilling message. Read it below:
“I’d start by thanking God for gifting me with life up to this juncture. It is five years and six months now since my happiness was taken away.
“God gave me a man who made me happy. I had everything in him. Sadly, my happiness was short-lived beginning June 2011 when Sajuki fell ill. I did not get relief; to date 31-12-2016 I have never been happy. I have tried looking for happiness in different places, but there’s no one or nowhere have I managed to get it.
“Another person living in an environment similar to mine would find it really hard to even comb his or her hair. When my husband was ailing and suffering, he told me: ‘My wife, I am feeling weak. Nonetheless, I don’t like to see you dirty and kindly don’t bar me from going anywhere I’d want to because I will die anytime soon. Let’s use the remaining time to do whatever our hearts desire’.
“Currently, I am feeling the same way he felt before dying. I am feeling my death is soon approaching. I do whatever my heart pleases. When it tells me to go to the beach, I would go, when it tells me to go to the disco, I would go, when it tells me to go and pray in the mosque overnight, I would go. I don’t want to be predictable; neither do I want people to know that I am ailing. I fake happiness, even if it is not there.
“To all those who are finding it hard to understand me and end up insulting me, kindly let me be. I don’t do anything to hurt or cause disgust to anyone. I need peace.
“My heart bleeds every day. I wish to do anything to have peace, but nothing is falling in place. There’s nothing as bad as losing hope and happiness in life. It makes you lead an isolated life.
“I have said all these for you to understand the person that I am. Whenever you say negative things about me, you come across as someone who is so eager to send me to my grave.
“My leaders, friends, relatives, fellow artists and fans kindly pray for me to regain happiness in 2017. Pray that my heart finds peace, pray that all my pains end, pray that I get healed.
“May 2017 bring happiness to me.”
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